12 posts tagged “love”

And just now I realized that...
We would not be able to see each other as often as before...

Until you graduate...
Until we work in the same city...

I should go to sleep by now...
But I don't wanna...

Pooh bear is the only comfort that I get...
But he doesn't hug back...

Maybe that's why people store alcohol in their apartment...
Maybe I need to start stocking up...

Oh look, there's another bug sneaking into my apartment...
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You know he loves you when he's always there for you,
      even if you are being grumpy, mean, impatient, or emo to him.
You know he loves you when he calls you in the middle of a party,
      even if he's having lots of fun and getting completely trash.
You know he loves you when he's willing to cook for you,
      even if you don't cook for him... as much.
You know he loves you when he's willing to do laundry for you because you are busy studying,
      even if he has to study and do laundry too.
You know he loves you when he remembers everything you've said and done,
      even if you don't remember every detail about him...

If you ask whether real love ever exists, the answer is yes!
If you haven't met one, I hope you will soon.
It's the happiest thing that can happen to you in your life :)

Nightmare is no fun at all, and it happened during my first night back home...

I'm never a brave kid about ghost. The house that I am living especially creeps me out! As I said before, this is an really old house without proper care. We are hiring people to "fix" it, but all they have done so far is to make this poor house worse. Thanks to drilling and destroying walls, the whole house is covered with thick dust. As a result, I have to put all my packages into this creepy old closet that is tall inside, connected to my room with a broken narrow door. The wall sticking out from the door blocks all the light, makes the closet even eerier. Not only that, the head of my bed is right beside this closet. That means I can't avoid the existence of the closet what so ever. In fact, I have to face it every night when I try to fall asleep in the darkness...

So last night I had this nightmare about the closet right beside me. I am in the dream, yet I feel like I am awake and staring at the closet. Suddenly, I heard someone scratching and knocking from the other side of the closet door. The next thing I noticed was that I couldn't move my body at all. I couldn't even open my eyes because it's so heavy and strange. I am sure that most of people have the similar experience, but I heard the "errrrrrr" sound right on top of my head. That's something that I've never experienced. It sounds like... the grudge girl. Luckily I didn't dream about her face or anything, and I finally managed to control of my body again. I was scarier and scarier because the closet was still standing in the dark right beside me, and I didn't know where else I could go except crying in my bed, trying to ignore the closet. Then I saw an unusual light occurred on my right. Panda's blowfish face appeared on my cell phone. He called me! I was so happy and scared at the same time. I couldn't help but sobbing in the phone. I miss him so much already. "I love you, I love you, I really really love you!" In the end, he "poked" me million times. I finally stopped crying, and started laughing and joking around with him.

He is so cute! "Cuz I said so!" I love him a lot a lot. How am I going to go through this summer without him...?

7.12 / 12:15pm / partly cloudy
He called me to say goodbye,
and now he is in the plane.
I hope he can get some rest riding it,
which is going to be hard... really hard.
I miss him!

When I got up this morning, I was hoping that there was miracle so that the thing I put in the fridge could become what I wanted it to be. However, there is no miracle. I guess I will try to make it again later.

I feel bad about last night. I told him that I would listen to him whenever he had problem or just wanna talk to me, but I didn't really understand him even though I listened to him last night. I shouldn't be upset just because he couldn't make it to the beach. He has to work as a volunteer without rest for his church, and he is already really tired right now. Going to beach needs a lot of energy which he won't have any right after returning from LA. Yet, I gave him a hard time and called him a "baka". The real baka is me. I am too selfish. I thought he would try to make it to the beach, and we could have awesome time there, but I didn't think about that even if he makes it to the beach, he won't get to enjoy anything because the only thing he wants to do is getting some rest... I guess there is no miracle this summer, but it is ok. We are going to see each other all the time next semester, and that's a luxuriousness for many people. I should be thankful, not upset or sad, because he is my miracle! On the other hand, I cannot promise that I won't "cheat on" him, since I am going to be with Chrstie titi in that awesome beach... (:p) I know he trusts me, and I hope he knows that I won't leave him, so I won't "come back" either. I miss him, but I will try not to be sad about not seeing him. It is a discipline between us. There is no shortcut or miracle but love and trust to overcome that discipline, which I believe we have both of them~ I love him.

This weekend is all about hanging out with friends.

Friday, we picked a free movie at blockbuster to watch. Apparently, I didn't make the smartest suggestion, and I started regretting right after the movie started. It's a American version of a Japanese ghost movie. I thought I could handle it, but I called osamu instead... I am really timid about Asian ghost movie because I cannot stop thinking about the plot when I see the similar surroundings in reality. However, if I start watching a movie, I will keep watching it till the very end. I guess it's my problem because I have the choice not to watch the movie. Panda, sorry about the scream on the phone. I am sure that you could hear it even your phone was on the desk. ><'' I wish you were there, so that I could hide in your arms! Luckily, we didn't go home right after that movie, but watched the Ice Age instead, because I didn't wanna go back to my dark house that night. We talked about all kinds of stuff untill 5:30am, took a nap, and came back at 6:30am. I passed out untill 5pm on Saturday.

Sunday was so hot that I couldn't even touch the hot steering wheel when I went out with friends. We went shopping as usual (I really should stop buying stuff.. ><''), and went to a Japanese resturant called Kabuto. Its name sounds like the one at Christburg, Kabuki, and even its fiements look like Kabuki. I don't know if they are owned by the same person or not. One girl's boyfriend was our waiter. He gave us so much extra that the meal worth 90 dollars, but guess how much we paid? 50 dollars! I dunno how he could give us so much free stuff, but oh well. He wanna impress his girlfriend, and we benefit from it. Someone said the guaranteed period of Love is six monthes. However, my friends are together more than six monthes, and they are still loving each other, which makes me feel like a third wheel all the time. =''= I hope the "Love guaranteed period" between Osamu and I is going to be forever, or at least longer than six monthes...
After dinner, we went to a grocery store to buy ingredients for a dessert that I wanna try to make, but the Asian grocery store closed at 9pm. We didn't make it, so I guess I have to go there today and then try to make the first dessert ever. I wonder who is going to be my white mouse...